Madison Corby is a grade 6 student at Little Falls Public School in St. Marys. This year she has struggled with her self confidence but has recently come into her own. Upon understanding her struggle she wrote a personal experience essay to share with her class. After spending a great deal of time struggling and finally finding the words to explain her process, Madison’s teachers felt it was important to also share it with others.
Here is her story:
You all know me as someone different. Only a few of you know the real me. The real me is scared of the world. I’m scared of people’s reaction every time someone looks at me. The reason I feel this way? Well its complicated.
All of this pressure, a good friend once told me, can be called potato sacks. I am holding a few different ones at this moment. There’s one I call “the eyes”, another called “the comments”, and another called “body image and other girls”.
The eyes are when people look at me obviously. It makes me nervous of exactly what people are thinking. The comments are when someone talks about what I just did. I don’t only mean the rude ones, but I just wanna do something and get it over with. Finally, body image and other girls. Basically every time I look in the mirror or see maybe a better looking girl, another potato is added to the sack and it sucks.
I feel that judging people is stupid. I mean since when is it funny to make someone feel bad? Even if you don’t know it, you should check their sensitivity level because they may take it more serious than you expect. Really, you can look at me, but don’t judge. You can laugh at me, but only if I tried to do something funny.
Suicide Facts in Canada:
- Suicide is the seventh most common death among Canada for males and tenth among both sexes combined.
- About 4,000 Canadians die each year by suicide, an average of 10 per-day.
- On average, 3 people in Ontario die by suicide everyday.
This is just a lesson, be careful what you say and do and who you’re saying it to before hand. No one deserves to be treated horribly to the point of death.
I have been called names and I have been betrayed. People like the nurse say, “It was the past and you have to move on,” but some of it has scarred me. Sometimes I stand alone, sometimes I’m okay with that, but we all want someone to be with.
I have some true friends and I am really thankful I have them in my life. This is really personal, but we are all family here. So I would like to tell the people that don’t know, that I have been encouraged and told to kill myself. It was hard to run away from that but eventually I got out of it after crying everyday and telling my mom I stubbed my toe. I am very proud of myself for telling friends, family, and teachers after a while because finally, I got a really nice nurse to help me get through.
If you are getting told something you don’t like, tell someone. It helps. I am here for you.
By Madison Corby
Little Falls Public School